quote of the day

love is...
what makes a strong me become weak,
my good time become bad,
an easy things become tough.


it comes all in an instance.

pengajaran hidup?

selama aku hidup hampir 21 tahun, 11 bulan & 10 hari ni, aku dapat banyak pengajaran hidup. walaupun sebelum ni aku buat-buat tak tahu je dengan benda tu semua, sekarang baru aku sedar.

1. why should i care about what people say when people don't actually understand my situation.

2. don't be too good to people, because you'll get shit in return.

kenapa aku cakap macam ni? pengalaman... ia banyak mengajar aku. untuk terus fikir pasal diri sendiri dulu, baru fikir pasal orang lain. selfish? lantak lah. siapa lagi yang nak fikir pasal aku kalau bukan aku sendiri, iya dak? sebab selama ni aku sibuk-sibuk fikir pasal orang lain dulu, baru la nak fikir hati aku.

he's an angel

he always have a solution every time i have problem
he always have a good answer every time i ask nonsense things
he always there for me when there is no one wants to be with me
he always wipe my tears when i cry like there's no tomorrow
he always have trust in me when i dont even trust myself
he always give his full support in everything i do
he always make me feel calm when i'm stress
he always give an advice when i need one
he always lend his shoulders to cry on
he always fill my day with sunshine
he brings the light when it is dark


he always worry about the crazy things that i did
he always get headache because of the stupid things that i've done
he always get migraine because of the stupid things that i said

he, the angel of mine.
& i'm very glad that he is mine.
day after day, months after months,
he always there, he always care.


thanks for being such a nice, close friend.
thanks for saying "that's friend for".
thanks for be there for me.

when i miss you...

when i miss you...
i go to the places that we had gone to
i drink your favourite drinks
i eat your favourite food
i sing your favourite songs
i listen to the songs that u used to sang to me, over and over again
i watch the movies that we had watched
i talk just like the way u talked
i remember the time that we spent together
i look at your pictures
i read all your messages




i miss you so much...
these are the ways that can make me feel close to you
even you're not with me anymore.

tagged from azwin

++aPe yG peNtinG dlM hiDup kAmu??++
• there's a lot of things that so important to me in this life. such as parents, myself, my goals, the things that i need to achieve, so many things until it cant be listed here.

++aPE bnDe tEraKhiR yG anDa bLi nGAn duIt Sndr??++
• white night gown at jusco

++diMAnAkAh tMpT imPiAN pErkAhwiNAn aNDa??++
• do i have a dream wedding? because i cant think any of it right now. supposely at home, or maybe in the hall or something. but the main purpose of wedding is to gather both side of families. so we need bigger space for that.

++bRApe LAme hBgN kMu bErkEkalAn??++
• secara purata hbgn dgn all ex bfs are around 1 to 2 years. hehehehe.... dgn all my friends alhamdulillah, sampai skrg. i still hv a friend since we were standard 3.

++adAkAH aNda sDg diLamUn CinTA??++
• yep. i'm in love with my jingles; my nokia 5800 xpress music =]

++diMAnAkaH rEstoRAn tEraKHir KaMu mKn mLm??++
• i dont know the name of that restaurant, but the location is at DUYUNG, also known as DAMAI among my friends.

++DiMAnAkH bUku tErAKhir KAmu Bli??++
• MMU BOOKSTORE

++NaMe PenUh ANdA++
• will not let u know unless u ask yourself. for security reason :)

++KaMu LbiH SnG nGAn AYh oR mAk++
•ya its depends on the situation. if its about education or anything involve with money or future, dad is always the best. but if its about feelings or "kondisi diri", mom will more understand my situation. both of them are great actually.

++NAmAkAN SesEoRg yG kAMu NAk jmPE sGT++
• to many to be listed here. but one of them is my angel. we did not spend much time lately due to our busyness.


++8 ShbT yG rapAt NGAn Anda++
• ya most of them are close to me but because the question just need 8 answers, so i just write 8.
1. amad (the closes friend at the moment, he's more than just a friend)
2. azra
3. syafiq
4. erin
5. subba
6. zetty
7. azwin
8. hajar


++Adakah KAmu mEnCuci PakAiaN SndR??++
• washing machine did the work all the time. but because of "kerosakan" washing machine, so my two hands did wash all my clothes.

++TmpT yG SEroNok KAmu iNgIn pErgi++
• to many to be listed.

++5 BnDE TntG oRG yg TAg KAmu++
• she's a classmate, ex-roomate, ex-housemate, and a good friend, we were very close before but since last trimester we're not always together because of diffrerent assignment group and we both busy with our own things.
1. clumsy [sometimes, especially when she has problem]
2. love her preciouscabella (i think i spell it correctly)
3. very nice person
4. orangnya kecik aja, cute.
5. and very fair skin

++8 PErkArA yG di GiLAi++
• u mean the things that drive me crazy or i'm crazy with those things?
1. having a lot of money
2. shopping (i'm a shopaholic)
3. cant wait to finish my study & have my own career
4. honda civic type-R (when can i get 1?)
5. Kuala Lumpur, city full of sins (i can get what i want here, with cheaper price with nice things)
6. cute stuffs, i want to collect them all but money is always a major problem
7. myspace? (i online everyday except when there's no internet connection)
8. Mini Cooper (i cant stop staring at it on the road, i just love it so much!)


++PeLUkAN oR CiuMAn??++
• hug can make me melt :) kiss can make me feel the love. but hug is usually make me feel calm

++8 buAH BukU yG bRu dibaCe++
• i dont read book so much
1. strategic marketin g text book(have to analyze the case studies every week)
2. skin deep by catherine berry (bought it since january)
3. e-commerce text book
4. apartment; the new 1st edition deco magazine (i read it at tesco just now, after i had lunch with dad)
5. -
6. -
7. -
8. -

++8 LgU yG boLEh dGR b'UlaNg KAli++
• ya i love to listen to the song that i like many many times
1. from the inside by linkin park
2. easier to run by linkin park
3. i miss you by incubus
4. the kill by 30 seconds to mars
5. kasidah cinta by dewa 19
6. stay by estrella
7. more than words by extreme
8. careless whisper by wham

++nAk tAG 8 oRg++

• will let them know later. i dont feel like want to tag anyone right now.
  

married?

sekarang ni memang musim kenduri kahwin. boleh dikatakan setiap minggu ada saja kenduri kahwin. aku bukan nak cerita yang aku dah nak kahwin atau pengalaman aku di kenduri-kenduri kahwin yang aku pergi. tapi, nak cerita yang ramai juga kawan-kawan yang sama umur dengan aku kahwin, nak bertunang, nak merisik dalam masa terdekat ni.

when i met my friends last week in KL, most of them are going to engage and some of them are getting married this year. The first thing that came out in my mind is, woooo….they’re getting married or engage soon. I’m happy for them, congrats. But me, I’m still single. Hehehehe…

I’m not feeling sad because I’m single or not going to have a serious relationship at the moment, but, I don’t know. I don’t know what I feel actually.

The true is I’m quite phobia having a relationship with guys right now. Why I say so? It’s because of my experience with many unsuccessful relationships before this.

Ya I am in a relationship with a guy right now, but I still feel insecure and not confident with myself. I don’t want to get hurt anymore. Even we’re not planning to getting married or talk about marriage but deep inside my heart I did pray for my happiness and have a good life with the love one. We have a lot of responsibilities towards our family. I’m the only hope for my family to have a better life. Plus, I and he are not in the serious relationship but we feel comfortable with each other. For a mean time, I think it’s more than enough for us. We try our best to take care of the relationship that we have right now.

In addition, I do have plan in my life. To have a bright future and better life. Having a car, house, my own business and a stable life before I get married. Even my ex-boyfriend did propose me to engage but I’m not ready yet. Just like I mention earlier, I’m not confident with myself.

Well this is just my opinion and my feeling about getting married or engage. Sometimes I do feel like “bestnya dah nak tunang, dah nak kahwin”, but I’m afraid that I can’t give full commitment when I’m in the next stage.

Aku hanya boleh cakap. Tapi takdir semua tuhan yang tentukan. Just like Gha said to me, “ntah-ntah kau yang kahwin dulu. Mana tau tetiba terjumpa lelaki lain then terus je lelaki tu ajak kahwin”. I agree with her.

for those who are going to getting married soon, here are the website that can help you to have a very beautiful invitation card. http://www.jinjangpelamin.com/kadkahwin/

hollywood holiday

I just finish my midterm holiday last week; from 23^rd March 09 until 27^th March 09. In that one week given, I did a lot of things, one of them are collecting data for my final year project, study foundation of finance, study e-commerce, and finish up reading skin deep novel.

These are my first plan before the midterm break was started. However during midterm break,

20^th March, Friday

I went home. My cousins; Shena and Hafiz picked me up because my dad has a work in KL and he might be late.

We ate McDonald at Ayer Keroh before we went home.

me, hafiz & shena

21^st March, Saturday

My parents and I went to KL around 12pm. The main reason why I want to go to KL is meet my ex-schoolmates and ask them to answer my questionnaire for my Final Year Project. After we had lunch at my brother’s house in Pantai Dalam, I met Hajar at her house. Her house is just in front of Mid Valley.

me and Hajar

Then around 5pm I went to Amad’s house at Batu Caves. I did my asar at his house and then he brought me to famous makan place in Setapak for our “minum petang”. I ate char kuey tiow and he ate nasi lemak. Then we went home.

22^nd March, Sunday

I met Anida at her house for my FYP then I went to KLCC alone. Amad picked me up there. While waiting for Amad at bus stop near to Avenue K, I saw vox from The Friday band; Acap . Say hi to him. Amad brought me to Bukit Bintang, and we went to Sg. Wang and Pavilion.

23^rd March, Monday

Balik Melaka!

24^th March, Tuesday

Met Gha at UiTM Lendu and gave her 10 copies of my questionnaire.

25^th March, Wednesday

Went to Shena’s salon.

Aman, a friend from high school called me and told me that he’s at King Hotel. He wants to “lepak” with me and Gha tomorrow night.

26^th March, Thursday

I fetched Gha at UiTM Lendu. We went to Carrefour and met Aman at King Hotel.

Gave Gha another 10 copies of questionnaire. Thanks a lot Gha!

me, Gha and Aman

strategic management midterm exam and final year project questionnaire

Strategic management exam is tonight, from 8pm till 9pm.
I did finish up read all the chapters but I don’t remember anything that I read. Sad huh?
(redha saja dengan exam malam ni)

The time now is 1650, 3hours more before exam.

I’m not worry about midterm exam actually. What is the main thing played in my head right now is my final year project. i did print out the questionnaire 5times, but I still didn’t not satisfied. A lot of errors such as numbers and missing questions. That’s why I have to reprint it. Other than that, all my friends have distribute their questionnaire, but me, I still haven’t photocopy the questionnaire & I don’t know when I will go to photocopy mine and distribute it.

In addition, I did think about asking a favor from my schoolmates to help me fill in the questions. I told my dad that I’m going to KL to meet my schoolmates for my FYP this Saturday. He gave me his permission. In fact, my midterm break is next week, so I can make use of my midterm break with my FYP.

Besides, I haven’t met my schoolmates for a long time because I’m the only one who stays in Malacca after I finished my high school in Bangsar. The others are still in KL.

Wish me luck for my midterm exam tonight and my Final Year Project.

I hope everything will go smoothly.

flea market; one of the reasons why i miss my life in KL

flea market is like a trend nowadays.
there's a lot of flea market especially in KL. for instance, Bijou Bazaar, few flea market at amcorp mall, PJ, night flea market at cheras and danau kota, and many more.

i've been there a few times before. we can find a lot of attractive stuffs there.

for bijou bazaar, people who are earn money through their online boutique especially blogspot did their offline business here, by building their brands and find their customer database, to create an awareness to customers about their online boutique. many of the seller here sell apparels and accessories especially for girls.



compare to flea market in amcorp mall, their focus more on home decor stuffs, books, old posters, old cassettes and cds, and old records. their target market also different because most of the customers are working people and adults who are looking for a new bits and pieces for their lovely house.


bijou bazaar, they're attract more youngsters by provide live performance while the customer enjoy their shopping. they also provide more activities besides shopping, such as art exhibition and of course introduced new bands by giving them an opportunity to perform at the bazaar.


in Malacca on the other hands, Jonker Walk is a well known flea market among the local and tourist. if i'm not mistaken, Jonker Walk is the only one flea market in Malacca (besides pasar malam). the sellers here sell many things such as accessories, souvenirs, pictures, t-shirts, beverages, chinese food (because the majority of the sellers here are chinese), decor for rooms and many more. there is also karaoke live performance by the chinese older people at the Jonker Walk stage. besides Jonker Walk, there's one more night flea market in Malacca called downtown also, it is located at Jalan Hang Tuah. however this flea market is not there anymore.


i wish there is more flea market in Malacca like bijou bazaar to create a competitive advantage for current flea market in Malacca. the reason why this suggestion is given is because Malacca have become a center of attention especially for the youngsters. more gigs and events will be held here (whether organized by the government or other organization) and this will give an opportunity to youngsters to earn extra money and have a constructive activity at the same time. plus this will attract more people to come to Malacca and give them a variety of places to visit.


last but not least,
a few pictures at bijou bazaar and flea market at amcorp mall.

at bijou bazaar

at amcorp mall

** hope this will come true in Malacca =]
** this is the reason why i miss my life in KL.

tagged from azwin

Do u think you' are hot?
sangat hot...!!! hehehehehe

Upload a favourite picture of you:


Gives three reason why u like that picture:
1. i look thin in this pic :)
2. my hair looks pretty :)
3. i love the picture

When was the last time u ate pizza?
November 14, 2008. with mudd and his friend.

The last song u listen?
Hinder - without you

What are u doing right now besides this?
check my facebook, sms-ing with wan syafiq.

What name you prefer besides yours?
i just love my name.

People to tag:
1. mr hajime (its been a long time tak tag dia)
2. kak mala (i know she will never do my tag)
3. azlan dawai
4. mili (my ex roomate)
5. erin

Who is number one?
a friend from blog

Number three is having relationship with?
his own dream girl? hehehehe

Say something about nombor five?
my roomate

How about number four?
my ex roomate

Who is number two?
a friend from my hometown, she's a very nice person :)

tagged by azra

Directions:

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you.
At the end, choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.

1. i'm so weak & lack of confidence skrg ni disebabkan banyak benda yang berlaku pd aku lately, tambah-tambah lepas i got a called from that woman.
   
2. I have to hug something when i sleep. I dont mind kalau tak ada bantal di kepala, asalkan ada bantal untuk peluk :)
   
3. I'm so grateful cause i have a lovely family, & parents yang sangat supportive & banyak membantu; especially my mom yang sudi dengar my problem, contohnya bila i got a called from that woman.
   
4. I'm quite romantic :p .... ya i repeat, i'm a romantic person. hahahahahahaha....
   
5. I love to write poems and quotes when i feel bored.
   
6. I'm kind hearted, selalu senang kesian kat orang, sampai orang pijak kepala.
   
7. I'm in the changing process, to be a better person.
   
8. I always try so hard to take care others' feelings, but I always didn't get the same thing in return.
   
9. I love my parents so much. Rela berkorban apa saja untuk mereka.
   
10. Aku pernah cuba untuk melupakan perkara yang aku tak boleh lupa dengan makan banyak ubat supaya aku tidur, sebab masa tidur saja akan buat aku tidak fikir benda-benda yang buat aku sakit hati.
    
11. Sambungan dari no.10, kali pertama aku telan ubat masa aku form 4, & kali kedua 31 Januari 2009, one & a half month ago.
    
12. Bila aku tension, aku akan tidur, atau driving, atau nyanyi kuat-kuat & menjerit sampai aku puas hati & tak fikir lagi.
    
13. I hate liars.
    
14. I can be good to you, even though u're not good to me.
    
15. I try so hard to be the best for him, & i hope he will appreciate me.
    
16. Aku kuat membazir. this bad habit susah betul nak hilang.
    

**taknak tag sapa2 pun, boleh?

quote of the day

.It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return,
but what is the most painful is to love someone
and never find the courage
to let the person know how you feel.

super duper busy

life getting busy and busy...
marketing case study have to analyze and present every tuesday,
retail management field trip; we have to go to several places in malacca for several town and observe the retail process in those places... retail management library project for exhibition,
questionnaire for my final year project (FYP) have to be done by this week (my Q have been rejected for many times...herrmmmm....),
finance assignment, strategic management midterm exam is next thursday,
e-commerce assignment; we have to set up a blog and do an online business,
marketing plan for strategic marketing subject, progress report have to be submit every week, we have to do website also...
wedding ceremony, picnic trip,





i only have less time and less money to do all these.
money? oh i do not have enough money for a mean time, even though i've change my habit (wasting money to spending money wisely), but money is still the major problem for me.



thats why i do not have enough time to update my blog. ya there's a lot of things i want to share with people out there but there's a lot of things i have to be done first.

bitter bitter bittersweet :p

1. Name one person who always texts you.
◘ amad apek azmi

2 . Name one negative thing about you?
◘ dont know how to control my stress

3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
◘ sleep, i juz wake up

4. Sport you wanted to learn?
◘ scuba diving (bole dikira sports ke tu?)

5. Ever tried gymnastics?
◘ never

6. What was the last thing you bought?
◘ mmm....dinner last night

7. Do you talk a lot?
◘ sangat

8. Where is your brother?
◘ at kl

9. How was your day yesterday?
◘ monday? so exhausted. i got class from 8am till 10.30pm. cant u imagine how exhausted i am?

10 . Are you an optimistic one?
◘ maybe

11 . People describe you as....
◘ kind hearted :p

12. Contented in life?
◘ not yet...there are more things i want to achieve in this life

13. Are you happy with the love of your life
◘ so far....ok la... bersyukur dengan apa yg ada :)

14. Do you skip meals?
◘ sometimes

15. Do you consider yourself smart?
◘ a lil bit

16. What color is your gate?
◘ black & gold

17 .Are you typically a jolly person?
◘ yes i am =]

18. Name one enemy of yours:
◘ i do not have any enemy...tp xtau la kan kot2 diorg yg anggap aku enemy

19. Name one close friend:
◘ one only? i have so many close friends

20. Who's the first person in your phone list?
◘ . me, the other number of mine

21 . What did the last text message your received say?
◘ owh, aku x free, mcm mana?

22. Do you go to gym?
◘ dulu-dulu

23. Song playing at the moment:
◘ blurry from puddle of mudd

24.How do you cope with stress?
◘ i will go to sleep, if i cannot sleep, i will take ubat tidur or whatever ubat that can make me sleep. because when i sleep i didnt think about those shit things.

25.Ever broken someone's heart?
◘ banyak kali (jahat kan aku ni?)

26.What makes you happy?
◘ the things & the person that makes me happy

27. What is the last thing you said aloud?
◘ erkkk...what eh?

28. Is someone bitter to you?
◘ yes. should i mention his name here?

monday is my super busy day

just like the tittle, i have a lil time on monday.

class from 8am until 4pm, then will have an assignment meeting at 4.30 pm.

break? from 11-12 only.

hermmmm......


selalunya meeting yang start pukul 4.30 tu akan habis around 6.30. then baru boleh balik rumah.
penat kan? macam tadi, aku hanya sempat lunch pada pukul 11 (sepatutnya tea break time tu). but what to do? itu aja masa senggang yang ada. nasib baik meeting pukul 4.30pm, itu pun aku yang set kan pada groupmate aku. at least dapat juga aku tunaikan solat zohor.


oh ya meeting tu every week, sebab nak kena prepare case study subjek strategic marketing for the next day (tuesday). ya kami ada presentation every week for that subject. subject ni kena analyze case study yang ada, semuanya pasal marketing. apa strategy yang perlu buat untuk solve that case. so far my groupmates semuanya ok. they give all the ideas & easy to co-operate, eventhough we're come from different race. 3 chinese & 2 malays. alhamdulillah.
ada orang tanya kenapa tak buat meeting on tuesday before class? class kan malam? from 6pm till 9.30pm? tapi aku malas, malas nak bangun pagi-pagi. sebabnya setiap malam aku akan tidur pukul 12 lebih, & akan terjaga around 3.then lepas subuh baru tidur balik. kenapa macam tu? sebab aku dah start my fyp. time ni je yang selesa untuk siapkan fyp. kalau tak buat fyp pun, memang akan terjaga, sebab dah menjadi rutin harian, dah terbiasa. pagi esok sure mengantuk. mcam pagi tadi. lepas subuh baru aku tidur balik, then kena bangun untuk ke kelas pukul 8. last2 aku g kelas lambat, pukul 8.20 macam tu baru sampai.


tadi masa kelas subject retail management ada bincang pasal trip untuk buat assignment. tasknya ialah pergi one place then untuk tengok retail activity at that place. at first kami mahu ke kelantan, on 22nd march to 24th march. tapi banyak sangat clash dengan trip classmates lain, sebab masa tu midterm break then ramai student yang ada trip sendiri. so kami akan ke kl, ke 2 tempat yang berbeza, moden & tradisional.


lepas ni nak kena pergi tesco pulak, nak beli barang2 untuk our bday party this wednesday. aku cuma dapat rehat lebih kurang sejam je tadi. lepas mandi, aku tengok tummy aku naik, aduuhhhh....naik balik. ni semua pasal minum ais 2-3 hari ni. mmmm....cukup lah sit up 50x. aku penat hari ini.