married?

sekarang ni memang musim kenduri kahwin. boleh dikatakan setiap minggu ada saja kenduri kahwin. aku bukan nak cerita yang aku dah nak kahwin atau pengalaman aku di kenduri-kenduri kahwin yang aku pergi. tapi, nak cerita yang ramai juga kawan-kawan yang sama umur dengan aku kahwin, nak bertunang, nak merisik dalam masa terdekat ni.

when i met my friends last week in KL, most of them are going to engage and some of them are getting married this year. The first thing that came out in my mind is, woooo….they’re getting married or engage soon. I’m happy for them, congrats. But me, I’m still single. Hehehehe…

I’m not feeling sad because I’m single or not going to have a serious relationship at the moment, but, I don’t know. I don’t know what I feel actually.

The true is I’m quite phobia having a relationship with guys right now. Why I say so? It’s because of my experience with many unsuccessful relationships before this.

Ya I am in a relationship with a guy right now, but I still feel insecure and not confident with myself. I don’t want to get hurt anymore. Even we’re not planning to getting married or talk about marriage but deep inside my heart I did pray for my happiness and have a good life with the love one. We have a lot of responsibilities towards our family. I’m the only hope for my family to have a better life. Plus, I and he are not in the serious relationship but we feel comfortable with each other. For a mean time, I think it’s more than enough for us. We try our best to take care of the relationship that we have right now.

In addition, I do have plan in my life. To have a bright future and better life. Having a car, house, my own business and a stable life before I get married. Even my ex-boyfriend did propose me to engage but I’m not ready yet. Just like I mention earlier, I’m not confident with myself.

Well this is just my opinion and my feeling about getting married or engage. Sometimes I do feel like “bestnya dah nak tunang, dah nak kahwin”, but I’m afraid that I can’t give full commitment when I’m in the next stage.

Aku hanya boleh cakap. Tapi takdir semua tuhan yang tentukan. Just like Gha said to me, “ntah-ntah kau yang kahwin dulu. Mana tau tetiba terjumpa lelaki lain then terus je lelaki tu ajak kahwin”. I agree with her.

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